Will I Make It to Friday? Will I Make It to Saturday?
Monday, March 24, 2008
"This defeat has taught me a lesson, but I'm not quite sure what it is." - John McEnroe
This is going to be a big week for me. I'm taking a last $100 to my name to do something crazy. I'm going to buy a passport. I've got more debt than these five pictures of Andrew Jackson can do anything with, so I'm going to do this. Or should I say but. I have to believe that I'm going to Mexico to brush up on my Spanish. Pray. Keep your fingers crossed. Furiously rub your lucky charm. Send positive auras. Whatever. Give it to me. Hit me with it.
My first part of my graduation exams are Friday, and I don't think I'm ready for them. On up note, I know the difference between a metonymy and a synechdoche. I think. The difference is subtle, but a metonymy replaces one word for another (firing up the grill for igniting a fire in the grill). A synechdoche abbreviates a phrase for a whole thing (I hope Memphis wins the Big Dance this year--where Memphis is referring to the Memphis State University basketball team).
You wouldn't believe how long it took me to get that in my head. Geez.
This is going to be a big week for me. I'm taking a last $100 to my name to do something crazy. I'm going to buy a passport. I've got more debt than these five pictures of Andrew Jackson can do anything with, so I'm going to do this. Or should I say but. I have to believe that I'm going to Mexico to brush up on my Spanish. Pray. Keep your fingers crossed. Furiously rub your lucky charm. Send positive auras. Whatever. Give it to me. Hit me with it.
My first part of my graduation exams are Friday, and I don't think I'm ready for them. On up note, I know the difference between a metonymy and a synechdoche. I think. The difference is subtle, but a metonymy replaces one word for another (firing up the grill for igniting a fire in the grill). A synechdoche abbreviates a phrase for a whole thing (I hope Memphis wins the Big Dance this year--where Memphis is referring to the Memphis State University basketball team).
You wouldn't believe how long it took me to get that in my head. Geez.
Labels: It Really Happened
SCREAMING!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
"Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. That will teach you to keep your mouth shut." - Ernest Hemingway
I just had to say this. I was listening to the radio when an article came up about two Mississippi bills were shut down in committees. They both were right-to-life bills. One of them was banning the RU-140 (I think) pill--the "oops we didn't have any protection and this ought to cover my becoming pregnant" pill. Some woman was disgusted with the "Mississippi Democrats" because of this. Now I'm going to say as closely as possible what she said:
"I think that the Democrats were ridiculous to not pass these bills because (blah blah blah--stuff that was insignificant...) and they are killing potential voters!"
Hold on just a second. The only reason a Democrat should force a woman to keep a child that she does not want to keep is because they might end up voting for them?????? SCREAMING!!!!!!!
I just had to say this. I was listening to the radio when an article came up about two Mississippi bills were shut down in committees. They both were right-to-life bills. One of them was banning the RU-140 (I think) pill--the "oops we didn't have any protection and this ought to cover my becoming pregnant" pill. Some woman was disgusted with the "Mississippi Democrats" because of this. Now I'm going to say as closely as possible what she said:
"I think that the Democrats were ridiculous to not pass these bills because (blah blah blah--stuff that was insignificant...) and they are killing potential voters!"
Hold on just a second. The only reason a Democrat should force a woman to keep a child that she does not want to keep is because they might end up voting for them?????? SCREAMING!!!!!!!
Labels: Screaming
Ten Things This Tuesday
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
"The man who sees both sides of a question is a man who sees absolutely nothing."- Oscar Wilde
Do you want to know how much I love you? I love you so much, I was having this conversation with someone, and after it ended, a train of thoughts came to my mind--and it ended with YOU! YES YOU! What kind of jubilant thing was I thinking? Who knows! You were on my mind, and that is all that matters.
Ten things that happened in a dream I had this morning--really!
1. I saw an old friend.
2. Even though she moved to be with the man of her dreams, she went to bed with her female lover in my dream.
3. I was only wearing a towel after showering. A big towel, but a towel just the same.
4. I went to the grocery store wearing only that towel.
5. I came back to the denizen from which I showered--a compound of condos--and decided to go another, what I thought at the time shorter direction.
6. Well you know how those things are made--they all look the same. Of course I did not remember the condo from which I exited.
7. Hoards of people from different sororities and fraternities came from everywhere.
8. One frat guy tried to take my towel away from me.
9. When I tried to kick him, he grabbed my ankle and tried to stick his thingie inside me (family blog or else I would have less tactfully expressed what he was attempting--I know that you know what he was trying to do)! I was appalled! I mean it's been a while, but I do have standards!
10. I determined while having this dream that I was having a stress dream and that I should awaken so I can finish reading The Adventures of Caleb Williams. That said, I couldn't awaken myself out of the dream!
Do you want to know how much I love you? I love you so much, I was having this conversation with someone, and after it ended, a train of thoughts came to my mind--and it ended with YOU! YES YOU! What kind of jubilant thing was I thinking? Who knows! You were on my mind, and that is all that matters.
Ten things that happened in a dream I had this morning--really!
1. I saw an old friend.
2. Even though she moved to be with the man of her dreams, she went to bed with her female lover in my dream.
3. I was only wearing a towel after showering. A big towel, but a towel just the same.
4. I went to the grocery store wearing only that towel.
5. I came back to the denizen from which I showered--a compound of condos--and decided to go another, what I thought at the time shorter direction.
6. Well you know how those things are made--they all look the same. Of course I did not remember the condo from which I exited.
7. Hoards of people from different sororities and fraternities came from everywhere.
8. One frat guy tried to take my towel away from me.
9. When I tried to kick him, he grabbed my ankle and tried to stick his thingie inside me (family blog or else I would have less tactfully expressed what he was attempting--I know that you know what he was trying to do)! I was appalled! I mean it's been a while, but I do have standards!
10. I determined while having this dream that I was having a stress dream and that I should awaken so I can finish reading The Adventures of Caleb Williams. That said, I couldn't awaken myself out of the dream!
Daily OM Dose of Thought
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
"No amount of study or learning will make a man a leader unless he has the natural qualities of one." - Archibald Wavell
Nothing Big Required
You Are Enough
Most of us have the feeling that we are here to accomplish something big in our lives, and if we haven’t done something that fits the bill we may feel as if we are waiting. We may feel incomplete, or empty, as if our lives don’t yet make sense to us, because they don’t line up with our idea of major accomplishment. In some cases, this may be because we really are meant to do something that we haven’t yet done. But in most cases, we can let ourselves off the hook with the realization that just being here, being ourselves, is enough.
As we live our lives in this world, we share our energy and our spirit with the people around us in numerous ways. Our influence touches their lives and, through them, touches the lives of many more people. When we strive to live our lives to the fullest and to become our true selves, we are doing something big on an inner level, and that is more than enough to make sense of our being here on this planet at this time. There is no need to hold ourselves to an old idea in the back of our minds that we need to make headlines or single-handedly save the world in order to validate our existence.
We can each look within our hearts to discover what is true for us, what gives our lives meaning, and what excites us. We can release ourselves from any pressure to perform that comes from outside of our inner sense of purpose. Staying in tune with our own values and living our lives in tune with our own vision is all we need in order to fulfill our time here. Our lives are a process of becoming so that we cannot help but cocreate; being who we are, responding to each moment as it comes, we can trust that this is enough.
Nothing Big Required
You Are Enough
Most of us have the feeling that we are here to accomplish something big in our lives, and if we haven’t done something that fits the bill we may feel as if we are waiting. We may feel incomplete, or empty, as if our lives don’t yet make sense to us, because they don’t line up with our idea of major accomplishment. In some cases, this may be because we really are meant to do something that we haven’t yet done. But in most cases, we can let ourselves off the hook with the realization that just being here, being ourselves, is enough.
As we live our lives in this world, we share our energy and our spirit with the people around us in numerous ways. Our influence touches their lives and, through them, touches the lives of many more people. When we strive to live our lives to the fullest and to become our true selves, we are doing something big on an inner level, and that is more than enough to make sense of our being here on this planet at this time. There is no need to hold ourselves to an old idea in the back of our minds that we need to make headlines or single-handedly save the world in order to validate our existence.
We can each look within our hearts to discover what is true for us, what gives our lives meaning, and what excites us. We can release ourselves from any pressure to perform that comes from outside of our inner sense of purpose. Staying in tune with our own values and living our lives in tune with our own vision is all we need in order to fulfill our time here. Our lives are a process of becoming so that we cannot help but cocreate; being who we are, responding to each moment as it comes, we can trust that this is enough.
Ten Things This Tuesday
"I have learnt silence from the talkative, toleration from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strange, I am ungrateful to these teachers."- Kahlil Gibran
So, I've been thinking about some things. Yes, I am still in that place of my previous post, but I've been thinking of you--how much I love you and want you to be happy and stuff. So, I'm going to make an effort to say what's on my mind that will be pleasing to you.
I'm going to put whatever the *^#$ I want to. Deal with it.
I've thought about going "green" lately. Here's some ideas on it.
Ten interesting ways to go green:
1. Kill fear.
2. Give a stranger a compliment.
3. For no reason, publicly laugh out loud.
4. Dare you to do it for sixty seconds!
5. If someone looks down, ask them if they need a hug. If they do, hug the negatives right out of them.
6. Take a shower this way: spray yourself with water, turn off the shower, give yourself a vigorous scrubby-scrub, rinse yourself.
7. If you're a green thumb, buy a plant to oxygenate a space.
8. If you're not a green thumb, buy a plastic plant to make someone have happy thoughts.
9. Refrain from saying God's name unless you need Him.
10. Stand or sit in a still place, close your eyes, and deeply inhale and exhale five times. Inhale deeply enough to see (and feel) your chest spread in all directions: feel it in your sides, in your back, and from your collarbones to your belly.
So, I've been thinking about some things. Yes, I am still in that place of my previous post, but I've been thinking of you--how much I love you and want you to be happy and stuff. So, I'm going to make an effort to say what's on my mind that will be pleasing to you.
I'm going to put whatever the *^#$ I want to. Deal with it.
I've thought about going "green" lately. Here's some ideas on it.
Ten interesting ways to go green:
1. Kill fear.
2. Give a stranger a compliment.
3. For no reason, publicly laugh out loud.
4. Dare you to do it for sixty seconds!
5. If someone looks down, ask them if they need a hug. If they do, hug the negatives right out of them.
6. Take a shower this way: spray yourself with water, turn off the shower, give yourself a vigorous scrubby-scrub, rinse yourself.
7. If you're a green thumb, buy a plant to oxygenate a space.
8. If you're not a green thumb, buy a plastic plant to make someone have happy thoughts.
9. Refrain from saying God's name unless you need Him.
10. Stand or sit in a still place, close your eyes, and deeply inhale and exhale five times. Inhale deeply enough to see (and feel) your chest spread in all directions: feel it in your sides, in your back, and from your collarbones to your belly.
Labels: Feel Goods, Ten Things This Tuesday, Thoughts
Gina's Been Depressed. Please Leave a Message after the Tone...
Sunday, March 09, 2008
"He who joyfully marches in rank and file has already earned my contempt. He has been given a large brain by mistake, since for him the spinal cord would suffice." - Albert Einstein
So, over the last few weeks, I've been morbidly depressed. I've missed completing work in all of my classes, cried in my classes, stayed in my bed for days at a time, not sleep for more than five hours at a time, even suicidal thoughts.
That's the truth, and I'm sticking to it. SCREAMING!!!!!!
I'm dealing with the reasons why I've been behaving this way. For the most part, it's fear. I almost want to personalize it by capitalizing it. Fear and hopelessness has been hovering over me like an umbrella that's raining from under it. I've got stuff that I have to clear out of my head, but when a person deals with believing what others say since your childhood, those thoughts become voiceless--not being able to acknowledge that someone else has been telling me this crap instead of hearing it from my own voice.
Now, I have to ask of a huge favor. If you see my blog, please leave a note. Part of the reason I don't post often is because I really don't think anyone's been reading it. I don't need a pity party or a praising "you'll get through this" message. Just say, "hi." I need inspiration. You are that inspiration for me. I have had many thoughts to write about, but if I write without anyone telling me that they read it, then it's like not knowing if the husband takes out the garbage in the forest.
I'll try to do better. And to that one person who asked me, "now you know."
I still love all five of you.
So, over the last few weeks, I've been morbidly depressed. I've missed completing work in all of my classes, cried in my classes, stayed in my bed for days at a time, not sleep for more than five hours at a time, even suicidal thoughts.
That's the truth, and I'm sticking to it. SCREAMING!!!!!!
I'm dealing with the reasons why I've been behaving this way. For the most part, it's fear. I almost want to personalize it by capitalizing it. Fear and hopelessness has been hovering over me like an umbrella that's raining from under it. I've got stuff that I have to clear out of my head, but when a person deals with believing what others say since your childhood, those thoughts become voiceless--not being able to acknowledge that someone else has been telling me this crap instead of hearing it from my own voice.
Now, I have to ask of a huge favor. If you see my blog, please leave a note. Part of the reason I don't post often is because I really don't think anyone's been reading it. I don't need a pity party or a praising "you'll get through this" message. Just say, "hi." I need inspiration. You are that inspiration for me. I have had many thoughts to write about, but if I write without anyone telling me that they read it, then it's like not knowing if the husband takes out the garbage in the forest.
I'll try to do better. And to that one person who asked me, "now you know."
I still love all five of you.
Labels: Calls for Response, It Really Happened, Screaming, The Negatives